Thursday, September 1, 2011

Hanging on by a shred

This applies to all of us - me, my husband, our 2 embryos. The embryologist's report today is not good. Both embryos are grade 3. Today is 3 days post fertilization.

Our clinic grades embryos on a 1 - 3 scale, 1 being very good, 2 average and 3 poor. They look at the number of cells, the rate of cell division/growth, how fragmented the cells are, the shape of the cells. All these factors tell them how healthy the embryo is and predicts whether or not it will develop into a viable pregnancy. One embryo has only 3 cells, the other has 6 cells. At 3 days they want to see 6 - 9 cells. But even though the 6 cell embryo has the 'normal' amount of cells, it's still only a grade 3. So as of today, our likelihood of viable pregnancy with either embryo is poor.

Our clinic will wait until Day 5, when the embryo transforms into a blastocyst before transferring/implanting. They do this b/c they believe if they make it to the blastocyst stage as a Grade 1 or 2, the chance of a viable pregnancy is much better. If the embryo makes it to blastocyst stage on Day 5 but is still only a Grade 3, the chance of a viable pregnancy is slim to none. They may also wait until Day 6 before deciding on whether or not to transfer/implant if we have a blastocyst that may be close to that Grade 2. My Day 5 is Saturday, so we'll know by Saturday or Sunday.

So it's not over yet. My friend had an experience where one of her blastocysts literally grew at the last minute, enough to be worthy for implantation. So there is still hope. It is only a shred, but it's something. It's something to get me through the day. God give us strength for tomorrow.

Here's what was in my inbox this morning. I read it before I got the embryologist's report. It gave me goosebumps. It's all I have to hang on to for now...

Your Time is Coming


“For the vision is yet for an appointed time...though it tarry, wait for it.”
(Habakkuk 2:3, KJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

If you’ve been standing in faith for the promises of God, I want you to know today that your time is coming! The dreams and desires in your heart, the things you want to accomplish, the situations you want to see changed will happen. Don’t give up just because it has taken a long time, or just because you’ve tried and failed.
I encourage you today — get your fire back! Don’t be complacent about pursuing what God has placed in your heart. It may be taking a long time, but God is a faithful God. No matter how long it’s been, no matter how impossible it looks, if you’ll stay in faith, your time is coming. Every dream that’s in your heart, every promise that has taken root, God not only put it there, but He has every intention of bringing it to pass.
Declare today, “My time is coming...God is working behind the scenes on my behalf...I will fulfill my destiny...I will fulfill the plan God has for my life!” As you declare, expect, and wait for the appointed time, your faith will grow. Your hope will grow. And you’ll step into the destiny God has in store for you!


Father in Heaven, I receive Your truth today and hold on to Your promises. I ask that You ignite my heart with Your holy fire so that I can pursue Your perfect plan for my life. Make my thoughts and words agreeable to Your will as I meditate on Your Word. In Jesus’ name, amen.


  1. Praying for some miraculous growth!! Love you and praying not only for some great results but also for peace for you and wisdom for your doctors.

  2. That email wasn't a coincidence. Praying for you and your little ones...

  3. So hoping that these 2 embryos continue to grow and turn into your babies. Keeping you in my thoughts.

  4. I'm holding out hopes for you and your embryos but you should read my last post. Just because an embryo starts out crappy doesn't mean it ends up crappy

  5. So many reasons why you are the strongest woman I know. I love you so much. I am hoping our little embryos make their way to little babies.

  6. Hoping for you with all that I have. I know it's easier said than done but keep hanging in there.