I read that Nicole Kidman and Keith Urban named their daughter Sunday (sp?), because as a childless couple Sundays were always the hardest. Sundays are family days and those were the days that felt the emptiest to them. I used to think Sunday was a really odd name for a child. Now I think it's the most beautiful name I've ever heard.
My Sunday is the 11th day of my hormone therapy. It's going well considering I've only had a couple of "episodes" this past week, the bloating and fatigue are manageable, and I'm shooting my injections like a seasoned diabetic. Side bar, to all those diabetics out there - you don't get nearly enough credit for dealing with what you do. I think about you as the clock ticks closer to 9 pm every night; as much as I dread and might complain about the shots, I don't have to do them for the rest of my life. So kudos!
Tomorrow we go back to the RE in the am to see how I've progressed since Friday. Friday I had about 4 tiny follicles, which is pretty minimal from what I understand, considering the fact I'm pumping myself with so much hormone that I should have enough follies to make Octomom envious. But at this point I'll take what I can get. I know it's still early and this is all a process so as long as I can keep it up, I'm keeping a positive attitude. So once my follies are mature enough and I have enough of them, I'll get my shot of Ovidrel (sp?) that will release my follies from my ovaries and then it's Go Time. At my u/s on Friday my RE also said my uterine lining is showing progress as well, another essential component for baby-making apparently. I'm learning a lot about the reproductive process. I've always had a fascination with anatomy and physiology so this is right up my alley. Literally. Ha.
But what I really wanted to mention in this blog is a situation I encountered yesterday. It almost caught me off guard, but I'm glad it came up b/c I know it will be the first of many. My BFF and I were at the home of an acquaintance of ours. She has a toddler and an infant and being on the subject of babies and pregnancies, she asked me the Thousand Dollar Question: So when do you think you might have a baby? Now, if my life were a sitcom this is where the scene would freeze and I would speak directly to the viewers, Zack Morris style. And the monologue would have gone something like this:
"She wants to know when I'm gonna have a baby! Well let's see, probably the minute my dormant ovaries WAKE THE F--- UP! But I don't know lady, you tell me. I know, let's all take a bet. Whoever gets the closest to the date the miracle of synthetic hormones work their magic gets a free box of Bravelle! And if you act in the next 5 minutes we'll throw in a free box of sharps!"
But what she heard was, well we tried for a year but I'm not ovulating so now I'm on hormone shots. I just started just before the New Year so it's still early. But we'll see what happens. Silence. Stunned silence. Then, oh well good luck! Well thanks, I can certainly use it. And that promptly ended any further prodding. So this is how I will handle it when, unsolicited, acquaintances ask about the state of our family planning. Ask and you shall receive I suppose. I figure this way any future inquiries are prevented. When's the last time you wanted to ask someone you don't know very well how their fertility treatments are going? Yeah, me either.
I am so glad you started this for updates. I am praying for you guys. I am sure it is a lot to take on. You are so strong and have such a wonderful husband. I am so proud of you guys. You will be amazing parents. Can't wait to read the updates. If ever you need anything just let me know. Love you bunches!!
ReplyDeleteone of the many questions not to ask when you live in "polite society". What a great idea this is to have a blog! Love and prayers always to you both.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rePcHxFJIuU
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you started this blog. I believe that a lot of women (and now, hopefully, parents) have or are going through this process. I can only try to imagine how difficult it is for you. Your sense of humor is wonderful and I think it will help. You know that I support whatever you both decide to do in this process. I am glad you have this blog and hope that it will be a supportive way to express what's happening, and that you will vent your feelings and frustrations. All of us who love you so much want to know what you are feeling. Not that we can change those feelings necessarily, but that we can better understand what it like for you -- because we want to be there with you every day, every minute, every second. As always, my hat off to you both. And much, much love.
ReplyDelete1st off, welcome to the Blog World! It is a great environment to be in coping with IF. It's crazy how much we have in common, year we got married, when we started trying, etc. I am doing Clomid and unfortunately worked too well on my first go around and I just couldn't risk quads or quints.
ReplyDeleteGood luck tomorrow- hoping for growing Follies!!
Welcome to this awesome blogging community - although I am so sorry that you have to be dealing with this hurdle.
ReplyDeleteI SO totally am impressed with and LOVE your response to what the poor lady thought was a simple question. I wish I could lay it out like that!!! "Well we've spent the last three years working on that, spent 25% of our gross income on fertility tests and treatment last year, my lady parts are like grand central station they get so much action with wands and probes, but its really going to be hard without any sperm." Umm, no, I don't say that, but I so wish that I could.
Best of luck on your journey!
-Foxy
welcome to the blog community! you'll find lots of love, knowledge, and support here. : )
ReplyDeleteI like the "you know, Rachel, you aren't getting any younger...why aren't you guys pregnant yet?" comments. Like, OMG! I hadn't even thought of that. I'm going to get a shirt that says "Polycystic ovaries, back off". LOL.
ReplyDeleteI had never heard the story of how Sunday got her name. Now I too love it! That makes me smile!
ReplyDeleteWhat a fantastic blog! You write so well and I will be praying for you daily. Love you!
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